Last weekend, I went for a haircut. In the big mirror of the barber, one of the rare things happened. I was staring at myself without my specks in the mirror and was surprised. I had never noticed that between my nose and eyes there is some bulge, which earlier was not there. I look at my face once again and asked myself – “is it me?” When I asked myself this question, I literally meant “the bulge” near top of my nose just below my eyes, which is mostly behind the frame. Or perhaps I never noticed.
The question was specifically to that part of my body – the bulge – is this really me? Suddenly some different thoughts made me think even more about the “overall me”. What defines me? The body – the bulge- until past couple of years was not there it is now, when I will get older, this mass would be lost. I should not be defined by this. Earlier I wrote on a tender coconut and how nothing becomes something in this case – the bulge, and in previous blog’s case – a tender coconut. I have black hair, in few years these would be white, would I change? What is that, that defines me as me?
Well on a philosophical level I may say that I am soul. But do I know it? This question about knowing the soul is like having information and not truly knowing the soul. These questions reminded what was suggested to me by a friend Ameet Murdeshwar a few years back. I often met Ameet while traveling to office during 2007-08. He told me read , a book “I am that” by Nisargdatta Maharaj. This book is on Adwait Vedanta. I feel myself to be too immature to read that subject. Though I have a copy of the book, unfortunately never had a chance to read it. I am asking myself this question for a week now – am I that? I will read it now.
4 Comments
rummuser · July 28, 2013 at 8:52 pm
Nothing ever happens without a purpose. Cause and effect is what keeps the universe going. Your getting the book, the narial paani question, the bulge question are all signals sent to you to get you to walk on a particular path. You won’t be able to not to. Accept. Proceed.
KRD Pravin · July 29, 2013 at 1:46 pm
Thank you uncleji… I will walk on the particular path! whatever it is… let me know which is the path though.
rummuser · July 29, 2013 at 2:07 pm
I quote your last sentence: “I will read it now.” That is being on the path. Writing about your thoughts like these, is being on the path. Communicating with me and others like me is being on the path. Meditating is being on the path. Reading the frog book is being on the path. Meeting that Sai Kaka and Mr. Saxena and keeping in touch with them, is being on the path.
In other words, be spontaneous. These are all messages that the universe is sending you. Accept and do whatever comes to your mind at the moment. You will get more messages. Become aware of them.
Learn, understand and practice what action is suggested by all these messengers.
There is no other mysterious “being on the path”.
KRD Pravin · July 29, 2013 at 2:24 pm
Thank you so much uncleji… unfortunately I lost touch with Sai Kaka. I will have to connect with him once again. Saxena Sir, occasionally only I call.
Yes you are in my regular touch list, Pune (you) is far nearer than Gwalior (Saxena Sir). Dadaji (Dada Gavand) is no more https://business2buddha.wordpress.com/2012/09/04/a-tribute-to-dadaji/ Guruji (Sri Sri) is not only busy but also is surrounded by many more – include advanced – Pravin’s. I am just a guy next door.
Meditation is for people like you -Quoting myself from – https://business2buddha.wordpress.com/2011/09/25/life-is-simple/ “…meditation is for elderly and learned people, I am not that. So, why to think so big?…”
Generally “the education ruined me thing” – the MBA thing – measure, performance tracker and speed long term / short term etc etc…
where are the mile stones? How do I know I am walking and progressing? How do I know I am on the right path? How do I know where am I going?
Thank you so much uncleji, I would do as you say.